I am so good at seeing the tiniest flicker of light at the end of any tunnel in which I find myself. In my last school post, I was seeing the possibility of improvement, a hint of impending balance. Hah! Not today. I don’t know what is going on at school this week, if it is just me or if it is something bigger. I do know there have been more fights this week than any previous week – two of my students are suspended for that at the moment. Tardies on the campus are out of control it seems like. That is not my particular issue, but I do see a lot of kids just strolling to class after the bell has rung. In my classroom the kids are nearly riotously talkative. I think what bothers me the most is that there are a lot of them who are willing to be quiet and work, but the loud ones make that impossible. I feel like a bad teacher because I can’t seem to get on top of the loud ones. The quiet ones who want to work need the help a great deal, and I’m not able to help them much. It really isn’t fair.
Maybe I’ll try making a list of things I could do to remedy the situation (I recently read that making a long list helps you get past the fluff to some underlying gems – it’s worth a try!):
1. Call their parents. That would be about 20 phone calls. Or more.
2. Give them detention if they don’t get their work done. (Punishment for me)
3. Dump McDougall Littel. Use something more engaging. What would that be?
4. Design some project-based learning experience. Can I stay on top of projects and standards at the same time? Surely I can. Surely.
5. Refer them to the office. Then what?
6. Play classical music in the classroom.
7. Make a new seating chart. Again and again until I get it right.
8. Have them complete the “refocus” form that we were given at the beginning of the year. I thought it was overkill, but maybe not.
9. What else? I guess I’ll keep working on this offsite (offblog?) and see if I come up with anything.
I am so tired, and so disheartened.